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IDMf050: are we dead yet? (FREE DL)

What made me happy today? the release of the 50th album (ish) from a group of musicians -- some of them amateurs, some professionals, a lot of them just in between -- all whose vision coincided here: the IDMf Netlabel. 

after being a member here for 12 years, to see this milestone and landmark project finally drop it's FIFTIETH album is astounding. it struck me hard in the feels and as I listened to the album and approached @RFJ's emotional-orgasm-as-fuck track I actually wept happy tears. i am a grown ass man and i am stoked to admit that. it was such a good feeling. i'm all full of fucking endorphins and unicorn spit and puppy kisses and angel cum right now and i fucking love this fucking place and fucking Ale%HK$O%HYJ$IP%YG&)PREJFVXMKerg^#@ndflk 
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ok phew.  

yeah, I was really happy to be able to be a part of this as an artist/submitter and experience the sometimes-harrowing process of an IDMf release that I put so many of you through. trust me: it looked way different from the other side, as the guy running the forum and netlabel SOLO for a good couple of years. each album that I had a hand in (IDMf001-029, I believe) carried and still carry all kinds of memories and emotions. it's not very different from the process of self-releasing an album:  

the call to all artists to create (within a friendly competition) and to submit their own personal musical expression before a deadline; to construct a compilation of several of these tracks, all created and formed by multiple people (the artists, i.e. us) from multiple geographical locations globally, with different life stories; filling the time between writing music and waiting: the banter and the sideshow -- the hilarious, angry, and heartfelt discussions between all involved members until the deadline; the anticipation of what the chosen tracks will shape the album into and what that shape will be (phonically, sonically, and visually); the sifting through all of the sounds amassed, picking and choosing those that are worthy and separating them from those that require more detailed attention; the time spent by the album producer(s), scouring to arrange and assimilate these pieces to make a whole, for it to be cohesive and be a complete/copacetic package that is amicably approachable to the listener; the touch up mastering detail and final sculpting carried out by the mastering engineer; the choosing of album art and name, then transcribing this informative message to bring the project together and give it depth and meaning; then, finally, releasing the project for the world to hear forever. we've officially built a legacy here at IDMf!  

how incredible. I'm so proud that I could be a big part of this and that it is continuing to evolve with people putting the same care and attention to detail into it that I did, maybe even beyond. it really means a lot to me. it's like watching a child grow up in a way. after all, I've said before that I wouldn't be the musician I am without IDMf and so many of the skills I have musically were shaped by my time and effort here. I know many of you feel the same. that is SO FUCKING COOL! 

it amazes me that an album so good (seriously, it's really, really good) can come out of the minds of so many people from all over the world. it really gets you thinking about art and collective consciousness and all of the things that make this human race beat like a drum machine as one. i'm super proud right now and my heart is full.  

to all that participated, mods, admins, IDMf artists, those that submitted, those that listen: hats off to you. 
<3

you must be juking

Fidelium - "Father" 
Genre: Ambient/Soundscape/Meditative 
Self-released 
Released: June 17, 2018 (Out now! Happy fathers day!) 
Listen: https://soundcloud.com/fidelium/father 
Buy: https://fidelium.bandcamp.com/album/father 

Phew, first of all, thanks, Dad, for helping me end a 5 year hiatus of releasing music! 

HEY DAD READ THIS BEFORE LISTENING!! 

How to listen: on headphones because I know you don't own a subwoofer (sad face) or something that has some decent bass. probably not your car though. driving to ambient music is kind of weird. I consider it a meditative piece, but use it as you'd like. also just as a warning, this is nearly 20 minutes long. 

a cadence in music is a succession of (at least) two chords (a melodic or harmonic configuration) that conclude a section, phrase, or piece of music. the intention of a cadence is to create a sense of resolution or a pause -- a feeling of finality. I basically plagiarized the last two sentences, because hey, this ain't for a grade, because I graduated from your school 15 years ago. 

a plagal cadence is known as the "amen" cadence because in most hymns it's that part where people sing "Aaaaaamen", which is basically just a major chord with a 4-3 suspension. only the finest of the dissonances. I calculate what I consider to be the climax of this track to be around the 2:3 Golden Ratio moment in the track's timeline. 

the only discernible melody in the piece occurs at the very end after the bass tone exits, and it is the melody from the ancient Gregorian chant "Gloria in excelsis Deo" which translates from Latin to "Glory to God in the highest". 

the word "amen" is a declaration of affirmation, and is the concluding response to prayer. my dad, the pastor, prays a lot. he spends a chunk of his morning doing it. me? I do sometimes, but it's not to someone I call God, nor to my knowledge is it even a deity or god of any kind. I just pray to whoever is listening, because I know from watching my dad pray as I grew up that there's something about it that actually works. sometimes it doesn't, and any atheist out there would tell me I'm making a false equivalency (I know because I used to be one) but the truth is that I know it, and it doesn't matter to me if anyone else does, so I'm going to keep cracking at it. 

when I was a kid growing up in Sacramento, CA, my dad and I used to listen to this radio program called Hearts of Space on public radio after our traditional Saturday night homemade pizza dinner with my family. the program featured all kinds of specials like ambient soundscapes by Brian Eno (et al), cosmic meditations, ethereal drones, sacred chants from around the world, and other kinds of spiritual/mystical music. sometimes there was just a straight up downtempo set. I was way too young to understand genres but I remember it being enticing for me, and my dad loved it because of its tranquility but also that it has a certain type of "other plane" quality to it that even for me now is kind of hard to explain. my dad is a very meditative person who appreciates music that helps your brain move. I mean, I was probably playing with power rangers toys or my game boy while it was on, but it definitely planted some seeds in my tiny child sponge brain. little did either of us know that this tradition of sorts would lay a foundation for me to one day becoming an electronic music producer. weird how things work out right? HoS can still be found on the web here: www.hos.com/ and that makes me really happy! 

LIFE... what is life? life is just one big Beethoven-esque and drawn-out cadence. so here is the slowest IV-I cadence anyone has ever heard. 

the picture on the cover is from when I broke my arm when I was two years old (my earliest visual memory -- 1987!) and my dad was watching over me in the hospital, along with my stuffed animals. he still rocks the 'stache. 

this track will be available everywhere, but first exclusively on Soundcloud Sunday, June 17th, 2018. 

this is for you, dad. hope you have a wonderful father's day. 

ps. mom! don't worry, I'll write a piece for you too. I'm sorry I forgot to send a card on mother's day. I love you!

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MY DAD'S RESPONSE FROM THE MORNING I RELEASED THIS TRACK: 

"Yes, I put my headphones on and brought it into the external/natural sanctuary (redwoods, flowers, birds, pool, etc. ) and the human sanctuary of my heart. A picture may be worth a thousand words-your music stirs up living pictures like dreams. It is 5 dimensional-technical-unifying chords, cadence, harmonic and melodic configurations to bring communicative resonance to the other 4 dimensions-historical (music’s connectivity with times)-Primal-Gregorian-“synthesian”(my own word-synthetic or electronic seeming too inadequate)-3 personal aspects-relational-Father and son, emotional-tranquil/sentimental, spiritual-meditative/prayerful/amending. There is the continuous undercurrent of waters-depths and movements- Creation (heavens and earth)comes out of the waters. Within these waters are breathing cadences-the many voices (songs) atoms to galaxies, stars to cells. I shared last night the difference between our consumerist culture and the ancient east-the baptism of Jesus would have been savored versus-a line of people at a store-“thank you, next in line please.” As I listened to your music I pictured the reaction of all that was in the Jordan River as the Creator of the heavens and earth was immersed there. God loving His universe and His universe loving Him through their various songs. I was also stirred with wonderful memories of our time in the hospital and our Saturday pizza/music fest. Thanks again for sharing all of this with me. ❤️❤️!!" 
- Fidelium's Father

Composed, mixed and mastered by Fidelium (Wayne Baker) 
Self-released 
Copyright 2018 by Wayne Baker. All rights reserved.